So many times she’s been knocked down
Left all alone there on the ground
Cold and trembling upon the floor
Is this all that Fate has in store?
She longs to hope, too scared to try
But then that look within his eye
Begs her to take just one more chance
Fall in his arms, give him this dance
Through the chaos of her life
All the struggles and the strife
She’s risen up from the ash
Though pale and weak from the crash
The flames still licking at her feet
Despite her fear there’s no retreat
She must go on, she can’t sit still
Lest the fire consume her will
Strength is hers, she must hold it tight
So it may bring her to the light
She won’t be controlled, she won’t be contained
This life that she lives no longer restrained
She stretches her wings, though tender and sore
Slowly lifting them up off of the floor
There’s a new light shining within her eyes
The fear that once ruled here she now defies
Standing up taller with each passing day
She’s now the hunter, no longer the prey
Take this life, I want no more
It has burned me to the core
Give me another in its place
And of this one please leave no trace
Take all the memories and the pain
And let them fade away like the rain
Take the darkness and leave the light
Carve me a path out of this fight
And for once just let me rest
Subject me to no more tests
She dreams to hope once again
To feel something deep within
For numbness and cold to finally pass
No longer to just look through the glass
At a world happy and content
To finally feel that she is meant
To feel all the things that others feel
To finally know what it is to heal
Behind those eyes so pure and deep
So many secrets that they keep
Feelings are veiled and truth is hidden
And entry within is forbidden
Though she’s waited to be allowed in
Her patience is starting to wear thin
Her life she won’t just put on hold
So she can be treated so cold
She’s fought in battles and she’s survived
And countless times she has been deprived
So don’t count on her waiting anymore
She’s already starting to close the door
You see her dance, you see her sway
You see her as just easy prey
But see what hides behind that face
Waiting to put you in your place
She’s not so sweet or naive
As you once seemed to believe
The beast within has found its flame
Never again will it be tame
If you attack she won’t back down
She is finally standing her ground
Her heart has survived through the storm
She held tight to its fragile form
The damage she tries to repair
Scrubbing away all the despair
All the anger and all the hate
She washes away to create
A brand new story for her soul
A story where she’ll be made whole
Never again will she look back
At the time the skies were black
She still stands, stronger than you thought
Though not the outcome that you sought
For any challenge she will always rise
All those that urge her to quit she defies
She’s not your puppet led by strings
Not your slave or one of your things
And when all that she is you fail to see
Deep in her heart she will set herself free
The greatest gift you just let slip
Through your fingers and from your grip
And with another she will finally find
True passion exists for her heart and mind
***This was inspired by a wonderful and insightful post by Naima.
Pressure building with wave upon wave
Always asking for more than I gave
Running on empty but there’s a mile more to go
Struggling so hard but the progress is slow
Determined I continue without a moment’s rest
My will and my endurance being put to the test
So easy to concede, to just take a seat
But forfeit is no way for me to be beat
So on I will go, down this long road
Each mile I shed more of this load
jadedheart
Thoughts From A Jaded Heart 