Tag Archives: Hate

Too Late

I wish you’d just hate me for all I am
I can’t keep living a life that’s a sham
Feigning indifference is wearing me down
The sorrow inside threatening to drown
The waters get deeper with each little lie
And the fire inside continues to die
So walk away now before it’s too late
And all that you are is all that I hate

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Through The Storm

Her heart has survived through the storm
She held tight to its fragile form
The damage she tries to repair
Scrubbing away all the despair
All the anger and all the hate
She washes away to create
A brand new story for her soul
A story where she’ll be made whole
Never again will she look back
At the time the skies were black


Cover of Night

Walk with me through darkened streets
Off the path of life’s deceits
We’ll walk in shadows out of sight
With no betrayal by the light
We must keep hidden our heart and soul
From all the hate that would take its toll
It lingers in alleys that we pass
And stares so hard through the window’s glass
Seeking a glimpse of where we might be
Silhouette could betray easily
So be sure to stay where shadows fall
And listen not to it’s tempting call


March 5, 2012


Screams

Screaming out into the night
The fear within taking flight
Frustrations rise like the wind
No longer can I pretend
That all is right and all is well
As I slip down into this hell
A self-made prison built of hate
The walls as cold and dark as slate
And they are closing in evermore
And stifling me down to the core


Fire and Ice

fire and ice

This is by far my favorite poem.  It’s by Robert Frost and has a lot of meaning.  Especially to me.

Some say the world will end in fire,
Some say in ice.
From what I’ve tasted of desire
I hold with those who favor fire.
But if it had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To say that for destruction ice
Is also great
And would suffice.

This talks how about our lives may end.  How this world will end.  Will it be in passion, love and hope?  Will it be in hate and fear?

A month ago I would have absolutely side with Ice.  I have seen and experienced so much hate, fear, betrayal.  It makes it hard to believe that there could possibly be enough passion left in me or in this world to over come that.

But today I say it will be Fire.  I know.  You’re thinking what the hell is she talking about?  Hasn’t she sworn off love?  I am talking about passion for life.  I have a renewed passion to make my life great.  To live life as if there is no tomorrow.  To love my family.  To love myself.  To hold my head high.  To choose love of life over hate for what has happened to me.  To choose passion for the everyday small things around me over fear of what may not even happen.  I am choosing happiness over sadness.

I will still have times where I will feel sad or where I will feel fear.  But these times will not define me or my life any longer.  I am jaded, yes.  I feel pessimism, yes.  These things are a part of me and it will take a lot for that to change.  But they are not all of me.  I can’t allow it to consume me.