Through the chaos of her life
All the struggles and the strife
She’s risen up from the ash
Though pale and weak from the crash
The flames still licking at her feet
Despite her fear there’s no retreat
She must go on, she can’t sit still
Lest the fire consume her will
Strength is hers, she must hold it tight
So it may bring her to the light
Take this life, I want no more
It has burned me to the core
Give me another in its place
And of this one please leave no trace
Take all the memories and the pain
And let them fade away like the rain
Take the darkness and leave the light
Carve me a path out of this fight
And for once just let me rest
Subject me to no more tests
She walks through life pretending it’s not real
Shutting down her heart so that she won’t feel
But broken pieces will try to mend
Though they will always fail in the end
For they’ve been broken a thousand times
Their jagged edges all that defines
The path of her life and what remains
A future that’s bleak and bound in chains
The morning light filters in
So softly upon her skin
A smile growing upon her face
For fading dreams she tries to chase
She opens her eyes, they disappear
But deep inside she still holds them near
For all the comfort that they bring
Against this world’s most vicious sting
Keeping her mind safe and whole
Despite this life’s daily toll
It never changes, everyone lies
The world will spin and everyone dies
But when we’re gone will we leave a mark
Or will our lives fade into the dark
Would anyone notice when I’m gone
Or would they forget me with the dawn
If I stepped back from all I know
Would they notice I didn’t show
Just a shadow upon this life
Finally bowing to all the strife
I just wanted to write a quick note to say Merry Christmas to everyone!
I have quite a bit to do the next couple days so I will likely not be posting, at least not much. I also wanted to let you know that I have created a new blog to get back to writing about myself, Diary of a Jaded Heart. I will, of course, continue on with my poetry here, the new site is just to get back to discussing my day-to-day life and the issues I run into. So, if you care to follow my ramblings about life, feel free to visit and follow. For the rest of you who are more interested in poetry, stay put and I will continue to post here as well! 🙂
So to you all, have a good holiday weekend, this year is almost over and soon we get to start a fresh year!
I want to be free of all this pain
To remove this shackle and this chain
Tired of my heart being filled with doubt
Tired of hearing my soul scream and shout
I want frustration to disappear
From my life so that my future’s clear
But as each problem seems to fade
Another in my life is made
There is no escape from the strife
I must accept it’s part of life
Time to say goodbye
You won’t see me cry
This isn’t like before
Let me show you the door
You will not be welcomed back
Courage I no longer lack
If I see you again beware
I won’t give you time to prepare
For the new page I turned in my life
I will no longer cave in to strife
It’s on my own two feet that I now stand
It’s my life and you are not in command
To be more is all I want
More in my life than a haunt
To have someone think of me
As the one they wish to be
In their life and by their side
As we match stride to stride
Someone to hold me when I cry
Promise never to say good-bye
Laugh with me when times are good
Love me all the ways you should
Instead of just being dismissed
To find my own way to exist
My mind wanders to the past
Things that pass us by so fast
What has made us who we are
Knowing we have come so far
Our lives we build upon what’s been
On every tear and every grin
Each person we meet builds our story
Some do it with gloom, some with glory
Our focus we must keep on the good
And not on being misunderstood
But we strive each and every day
To find the strength for us to stay
Upon this earth to experience more
Of what our different lives have in store
jadedheart
Thoughts From A Jaded Heart 